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AUTHOR: Mark Paul Oleksiw
RELEASE DATE: February 2, 2018
RATING: ★½
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ARC provided by the publisher
Let me preface this review by saying: there's very little objectively wrong with this book. I am 100% certain other readers would like this, however, this book wasn't to my personal tastes. I initially requested this book because the cover and the blurb intrigued me, but this book turned out to be something other than what I'd hoped for.
In the 1990s, 16-year-old Kiren starts keeping a journal. Having been a bit of a loner before, he befriends Maurice (the drinking, rebellious badass cool guy) and Andrew 'Moony' (the deep, hippy nerd). They become the best of friends. This book alternates between following Kiren back in the day and in present day. A large part of this book is also a retelling of things that have happened to him, however I never fully realized if it's Kiren who told this story or if it's basically you reading one of his journal entries. The other 'part' of the book is, like I said, about Kiren in the present day, him now being a successful 30 something living on the west coast until one day, a mysterious letter and news clipping that was sent to him about something that happened 20 years ago makes him return home.
Going into this book, after the first chapter you know there'll be an accident, someone's going to drown, another one will be severely injured and a third one will live. That premise, especially with these ~mysterious newspaper clippings being sent to him and whatnot makes you believe this is going to be a mystery, right? WRONG. Now, this turned out to be something completely different.
In fact, I'm just going to list things that bothered me about this book because I'm having a hard time writing long stretches of text today apparently.
- This book is very slow, and apparently for no reason. Slow doesn't always equal bad but this was, for me, the wrong kind of slow. Initially, I wanted to DNF it up until 40-ish%, but then I decided to continue this even though I was bored. The flow of this book was weird in the way that there was none.
- This was also very confusing in the beginning, another reason for me to want to DNF it. At first I thought it was suspense building up to a big reveal of "who sent these letters" but then that fizzled out into nothing and I realized this book was just straight up confusing, also for seemingly no particular reason.
Going into this book, after the first chapter you know there'll be an accident, someone's going to drown, another one will be severely injured and a third one will live. That premise, especially with these ~mysterious newspaper clippings being sent to him and whatnot makes you believe this is going to be a mystery, right? WRONG. Now, this turned out to be something completely different.
In fact, I'm just going to list things that bothered me about this book because I'm having a hard time writing long stretches of text today apparently.
- This book is very slow, and apparently for no reason. Slow doesn't always equal bad but this was, for me, the wrong kind of slow. Initially, I wanted to DNF it up until 40-ish%, but then I decided to continue this even though I was bored. The flow of this book was weird in the way that there was none.
- This was also very confusing in the beginning, another reason for me to want to DNF it. At first I thought it was suspense building up to a big reveal of "who sent these letters" but then that fizzled out into nothing and I realized this book was just straight up confusing, also for seemingly no particular reason.
- The fact that this book is a YA coming of age novel but never did I feel like you were following actual teenagers? A part of this book you were literally following a thirty-something guy, which showed, and when you weren't, you were reading about characters that very much didn't feel like teenagers. Honestly, from my experiences reading YA books, getting the voices of teenaged characters right is hard and this book didn't succeed doing that in my opinion.
- The friendship between the guys didn't seem very healthy and I never really understood what was amazing about it. In fact, the ending of this book is sort of dependent on you as a reader really understanding what was special about their relationship, which I did not. Like there's one instance where Maurice gets unreasonably angry with Kiren because Kiren never told him he was going to go out of state for school, which bothered me a lot. When people are holding things back from each other and also aren't allowed to live their own lives, I feel like whatever relationship is portrayed isn't very healthy.
- Teenaged Kiren was a creep, long story short. His crush on Laura - like he hears her talk and dreams about her and suddenly he's completely besotted with her, to the point he becomes creepy and too obsessed. Let's not talk about how women were portrayed in this book - as shiny, beautiful objects full of mystery and not as real people. Also the ending was a bit??? You've met this girl for all of five minutes in the last 20 years and you realize you're in love with her? Nope.
Genuinely the only reason I'm not rating this 1 star is because there's nothing objectively wrong with this book, it's just that *I* didn't love it.
- The friendship between the guys didn't seem very healthy and I never really understood what was amazing about it. In fact, the ending of this book is sort of dependent on you as a reader really understanding what was special about their relationship, which I did not. Like there's one instance where Maurice gets unreasonably angry with Kiren because Kiren never told him he was going to go out of state for school, which bothered me a lot. When people are holding things back from each other and also aren't allowed to live their own lives, I feel like whatever relationship is portrayed isn't very healthy.
- Teenaged Kiren was a creep, long story short. His crush on Laura - like he hears her talk and dreams about her and suddenly he's completely besotted with her, to the point he becomes creepy and too obsessed. Let's not talk about how women were portrayed in this book - as shiny, beautiful objects full of mystery and not as real people. Also the ending was a bit??? You've met this girl for all of five minutes in the last 20 years and you realize you're in love with her? Nope.
Genuinely the only reason I'm not rating this 1 star is because there's nothing objectively wrong with this book, it's just that *I* didn't love it.
Long story short, I feel like this review on Goodreads sums my thoughts on this book up better than I can.

